Am I giving up too easily?

I don’t know how to handle this. Todays 2k didn’t go so well. In fact I didn’t fulfill this time on a treadmill either. It nags me a lot. Am I giving up too easily?

Since I started running in 2009 I’ve only interrupted three runs and all three have been on treadmill. Most painful is that I don’t know if anything else but me is to blaim.

This time I know that I had the correct km/h speed. I was going to run 5 x 2k with 90 secs of rest in between. TheEd (trainer) had told me to aim for 4:10 min/km. Converted to speed that is 14.4 km/h.

How things turned out when running

I got there and started running. It felt very fast. During the first 90 seconds of rest I felt quite exhausted. On the 2nd lap I slowed the speed on the treadmill a little. When looking at the Garmin it still said 3:44 as pace. On the 2nd rest I felt even more fatigued. On the 3rd lap of running I slowed down to 12.7 km/h. That was what the Garmin thought of as 4:09. Only after a couple of minutes the stomach started messing with me. After a little more than 6 minutes I had to run to powder my nose. When I got back three minutes later I gave up and went home…

On the way home in the car my thoughts were only focused on my failure…

Either I have got very slow and weak during the build up, or something is seriously wrong with the treadmill. But I can’t imagine that it would be that out of calibration. :S

Last time I ran a 10k time trial was 27th November – if the Garmin watch wasn’t completely insane I ran it at 38:37. It would feel very bad for me if my fitness have gone down that much in six weeks.

Mentally the last two failed faster runs is a little hard on me. I’m not used to this. Not completing. Usually it’s not even a part of my vocabulary. But trust me, this doesn’t mean I will let myself be forced into negative thoughts – I will never give up.

It’s might be troublesome and tiresome, but in the end I know these things only makes me more determined to get back to the chase again. I think that I need to run outside on the next couple of paced runs. And when the snow gets away I will visit Mjörnvallen – our local outside arena here in Alingsås..

Actually I’m always like this when my achievement isn’t good enough. At first I think, think, think. And while doing that I’m very hard on myself. But later on, or even just a couple of moments after, I’m back in, most of the times even more determined to succeed.. Stubborn, some might say (read wife :))

But, but.. Something needs to be done with my stomach – It can’t continue this way. Today I can’t think of anything that would cause that kind of stress to it. All I’ve eaten has been kind-to-digestion food. Need to give that doctor a call..

Over and out

Detailed Garmin data

Note the differ with the Garmin values which are written within parentheses

Day 3, sub 40 program
Start with 5x2k R90 8min 20 (4.10 per k)

Lap Distance Time AvgPace AvgHR MaxHR MinHR
1 2 (2.30) 8:41 4:20 (3:47) 166 184
Rest 1:30 107
2 2 (2.37) 9:00 4:30 (3:48) 177 191
Rest 1:30 147
3 ? (1.32) 5:28 ? (4:09) 175 186
Rest 1:30 168

Now when looking at the data, I am more sure – there’s obviously something that isn’t quite right with the treadmill. I know some of my paces pretty well, and on lap 2 there’s no way I ran at 4:30. 4:30 was a pace I used to do my aerobic runs at, when aiming for a heart rate at around 155. And that was last summer. Well, well.. 😉

But then again, I’m not sure about anything right now at the moment. Need to sort things out a little. But it’s still strange that I do feel stronger than ever! 😀

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